<Episode 194>   Rue stood leaning against a wide-open window, as if waiting. At that moment, it felt as if I’d gone back 160 years. The sight of him smiling grimly against the not-so-dark background evoked a tense feeling, reminiscent of my first encounter with a devil.   As I swallowed my dry saliva, his…

<Episode 193>   The decision to go to the Imperial Palace was made. Although it wasn’t planned in my schedule, I couldn’t pretend not to know, even after thinking about the identity of the monster called “Blue-haired North Continent God” ten times and worrying about it a hundred times, it was definitely Rue.   No…

<Episode 192>   ‘Another trick.’ Bernard, who swallowed a sigh, collected the scraps of paper that had turned into dust. Although Lord Calepa’s reaction was somewhat intense, it was not surprising. This was already the third time this happened.   It all started with a rumour that Princess Natasha would become the regent of the…

<Episode 191>   How to Raise Eggs.   I pondered in my mind, visualizing the round and smooth oval shape of an egg… No, a bird’s egg, as I eagerly rolled my eyes.   ‘Raising eggs, caring for bird eggs, proper nurturing methods for hawks…’   Never before had I looked at a list of…

<Episode 190>   Hello, Ash.   It’s embarrassing to start talking by myself in an empty room. Today is the day I die.   To be more precise, it’s the day I leave for a distant universe. I think you’ll fully understand what that means by now.   (Brief silence)   How have you been?…

<Episode 189>   The first breath was hot. Until the moment when the bold Rue’s warmth parted my lips, I had no choice but to be entranced, and carried away.   Rue’s eyes, which I could see from a distance where our eyelashes touched, were more beautiful than the universe itself. His head, which had…

<Episode 188>   The Death of Rue. The unexpected obstacle brought back the question I’d put on the back burner until now.   Why did I come to Astrsosa 160 years ago? This dilemma occasionally bothered me like a thorn stuck in my fingertips.   What exactly was Dian’s legacy for? To peer into his…

For Concetta, thank you for the ko-fi!   <Episode 187>   It wasn’t long before a soft touch reached my cheeks and under my ears. The unmistakable feeling of a kiss made my ears tingle, but it lasted only for a moment.   “Wait. Heart, what about the heart? It’s already been four days…!” “Calm…

<Episode 186>   * * * What was this? That was the first thought I had as I looked up at the gray ceiling flickering with yellow lights.   I blinked my eyes absentmindedly and quickly got up as if I were on fire. In the silence of the room, with the cold wind from…

<Episode 185>   After writing “Ash” on the leather pad, I turned my head towards the bed. I’d felt it before too, but Rue truly slept like he was dead. Seeing his face exhaling softly without any sign of moment naturally reminded me of the future him.   ‘Have I ever seen Rue sleeping like…

<Episode 184>   The sword I was holding gave out.   Staring into his strangely calm eyes, I couldn’t help but ask again.   “You… how can you say it so casually like that?” A curse, and four days of respite.   Did those eyes really belong to a man who would die in four…

<Episode 183>   I looked down, forgetting even to swallow my dry saliva.  The sky, where snowflakes danced, was pitch black and dark. Despite the tattered curtains wide open, not a single beam of moonlight could enter the room. Only the sound of the wind seeping through the window crack added to the eerie atmosphere….

<Episode 182>   * * *   From some point, checking my wake-up time became one of the most important things for me.   ‘At 6:40 in the evening…’ Now, instead of 6 o’clock in the evening, I found myself waking up around 7 o’clock.   Certainly, comparing today’s physical condition with two days ago,…

<Episode 181>   I am a man. Oh, no. Untrue. I am not a man. Although I have lived as a man for a long time, my mind and soul have always identified as a woman.   In fact, I only realized this a few months ago. When I first chose the life of a…

<Episode 180>   While Rue was talking to Creon or whatever his name was, I wiped the dirt and snow off my face while still lying there.   ‘Yeah, this is much better. It’s not even my body, so there’s no need to cause any animosity. If I make trouble here, it could make things…

<Episode 179>   ‘Well, if I have to say it, my best skill is physical activities.’ I had no intention of saying that. If I revealed the truth, I know I’d have to roll around like a dog. Why? Because that’s a skill that can’t be mastered any other way.   ‘I don’t want to…