For Cali, thank you for the ko-fi! <Episode 148>   His noble face casually emptied the champagne glass. Count Serenier smiled as if to say, “If you have something to say, go ahead,” with eyes that showed no sign of a conscience. I swallowed a sigh and watched the first dance as a bystander.  …

For Cali, thank you for the ko-fi! <Episode 147>   Raphael looked at me as if he were carefully observing, and carefully put his lips on the back of my hand.   To think Raphael just kissed the back of my hand. I never thought I’d live to see the day.   “Yes, good evening….

<Episode 146>   Just then. When I turned my eyes and my field of vision expanded, I spotted a sturdy woman nearby. Those burdensome sparkling eyes belonged to…   “Miss Tara?”   “Yes!” Standing next to Tara was the relatively tall and thin older Calpenweaver sister. She approached me with a bright smile and politely…

<Episode 145>   It was hard to open my mouth easily. This was because the word ‘love’ that had come out of Rue’s mouth was both very unfamiliar and also not at all light.   ‘Does Rue find it difficult to clearly define his emotions?’   It didn’t seem like that. Rather, it seemed like…

<Episode 144>   Every time I face Rue, I painfully realize the fact that I have no way with words. Among them, especially today, I felt a great astonishment to the point I was distraught. ‘H-how could he… say such embarrassing words so casually like that?’   I wasn’t saying it was weird. The time…

For Concetta, thank you for the ko-fi!   <Episode 187>   It wasn’t long before a soft touch reached my cheeks and under my ears. The unmistakable feeling of a kiss made my ears tingle, but it lasted only for a moment.   “Wait. Heart, what about the heart? It’s already been four days…!” “Calm…

<Episode 186>   * * * What was this? That was the first thought I had as I looked up at the gray ceiling flickering with yellow lights.   I blinked my eyes absentmindedly and quickly got up as if I were on fire. In the silence of the room, with the cold wind from…

<Episode 185>   After writing “Ash” on the leather pad, I turned my head towards the bed. I’d felt it before too, but Rue truly slept like he was dead. Seeing his face exhaling softly without any sign of moment naturally reminded me of the future him.   ‘Have I ever seen Rue sleeping like…

<Episode 184>   The sword I was holding gave out.   Staring into his strangely calm eyes, I couldn’t help but ask again.   “You… how can you say it so casually like that?” A curse, and four days of respite.   Did those eyes really belong to a man who would die in four…

<Episode 183>   I looked down, forgetting even to swallow my dry saliva.  The sky, where snowflakes danced, was pitch black and dark. Despite the tattered curtains wide open, not a single beam of moonlight could enter the room. Only the sound of the wind seeping through the window crack added to the eerie atmosphere….

<Episode 181>   I am a man. Oh, no. Untrue. I am not a man. Although I have lived as a man for a long time, my mind and soul have always identified as a woman.   In fact, I only realized this a few months ago. When I first chose the life of a…

<Episode 182>   * * *   From some point, checking my wake-up time became one of the most important things for me.   ‘At 6:40 in the evening…’ Now, instead of 6 o’clock in the evening, I found myself waking up around 7 o’clock.   Certainly, comparing today’s physical condition with two days ago,…

<Episode 180>   While Rue was talking to Creon or whatever his name was, I wiped the dirt and snow off my face while still lying there.   ‘Yeah, this is much better. It’s not even my body, so there’s no need to cause any animosity. If I make trouble here, it could make things…

<Episode 179>   ‘Well, if I have to say it, my best skill is physical activities.’ I had no intention of saying that. If I revealed the truth, I know I’d have to roll around like a dog. Why? Because that’s a skill that can’t be mastered any other way.   ‘I don’t want to…

<Episode 178>   For some reason, I felt a chilling sensation as Rue stepped out of the iron bars. Staggering to his feet, the servant glanced at me and whispered something softly in Rue’s ear.  If it were my own body, I would have heard everything, but with Dian’s body, it was difficult to eavesdrop…

<Episode 177>   “What?”   “And torture him to find out his purpose for hiding in the castle. If the lady who was always afraid of such things succeeds in this task today, the lord will be very pleased.”   Are you telling me to torture this person right now?   Thump. Thump. My heart…