<Episode 185>   After writing “Ash” on the leather pad, I turned my head towards the bed. I’d felt it before too, but Rue truly slept like he was dead. Seeing his face exhaling softly without any sign of moment naturally reminded me of the future him.   ‘Have I ever seen Rue sleeping like…

<Episode 184>   The sword I was holding gave out.   Staring into his strangely calm eyes, I couldn’t help but ask again.   “You… how can you say it so casually like that?” A curse, and four days of respite.   Did those eyes really belong to a man who would die in four…

<Episode 183>   I looked down, forgetting even to swallow my dry saliva.  The sky, where snowflakes danced, was pitch black and dark. Despite the tattered curtains wide open, not a single beam of moonlight could enter the room. Only the sound of the wind seeping through the window crack added to the eerie atmosphere….

<Episode 182>   * * *   From some point, checking my wake-up time became one of the most important things for me.   ‘At 6:40 in the evening…’ Now, instead of 6 o’clock in the evening, I found myself waking up around 7 o’clock.   Certainly, comparing today’s physical condition with two days ago,…

<Episode 181>   I am a man. Oh, no. Untrue. I am not a man. Although I have lived as a man for a long time, my mind and soul have always identified as a woman.   In fact, I only realized this a few months ago. When I first chose the life of a…

<Episode 180>   While Rue was talking to Creon or whatever his name was, I wiped the dirt and snow off my face while still lying there.   ‘Yeah, this is much better. It’s not even my body, so there’s no need to cause any animosity. If I make trouble here, it could make things…

<Episode 179>   ‘Well, if I have to say it, my best skill is physical activities.’ I had no intention of saying that. If I revealed the truth, I know I’d have to roll around like a dog. Why? Because that’s a skill that can’t be mastered any other way.   ‘I don’t want to…

<Episode 178>   For some reason, I felt a chilling sensation as Rue stepped out of the iron bars. Staggering to his feet, the servant glanced at me and whispered something softly in Rue’s ear.  If it were my own body, I would have heard everything, but with Dian’s body, it was difficult to eavesdrop…

<Episode 177>   “What?”   “And torture him to find out his purpose for hiding in the castle. If the lady who was always afraid of such things succeeds in this task today, the lord will be very pleased.”   Are you telling me to torture this person right now?   Thump. Thump. My heart…

<Episode 176>   What? yesterday?   ‘Did Dian really come and treat you?’   This was a problem. Aside from the treatment, I had no idea what the two of them talked about.   Rue wasn’t particularly friendly towards me, so had he become close enough to Dian to gossip about someone with the same…

<Episode 175>   * * *   First question: What poison was given to Dian Serenier?   “Oh, it’s one of the three major Astrozan poisons! Ouch! E-Eh? Speak louder? Who’re you giving orders to now, you… Ack! It’s the Glass Violet, one of the three deadliest poisons. But, did you really consume that poison?…

<Episode 174>   * * *   Whooing.   A cold wind blows.   In the dark space, a perched yellow candle flickered. The woman, who was sitting in the chair, raised her head after putting a new candle in the holder and transferring the flame.   Had she just turned 20? The young looking…

<Episode 173>   Rue looked curiously at me in my pajamas, like looking at a hamster spinning in a wheel. And too for quite a while.   I had bravely taken off my clothes to gain his trust, but Dian’s human body had its limit when it came to enduring the cold.   “Hurry up…